I don't know what should i feel about myself sometimes, i don't even understand myself sometimes either . I do feel like is a headache for somebody that cares for me . And being myself is really terrible . Because i don't even know how to feel about myself, so how can some people even know how to feel about me . I don't want anybody think that i'm over protective nor clingy . It will hurt the one i love if over doing . I give freedom, space . But i also want to know what's going on in between . But at the same time i don't want and don't like to interrupt the space I'm giving . Don't deny that i'm sensitive sometimes and sometimes i'm not . And sometimes even being so jealous, and sometime i'm not . Can anyone just tell me wtf is going on with me ? I don't always show attitude but when i do, i just feel like i'm vexatious . I always apologies because i do think that everything is me that mess things up . And when people apologies i just feel that i'm the one that cause things to become the way is not suppose to be . I even feel bad when people apologies to me . Always tend to make myself moody and overthink things that i shouldn't have known . Is just like making myself insecure even when things is just fine . I .. i just don't know about myself . Another thing is, i'm not good at words, i know people is upset, i want to say something but i don't know what to say to make it a right sentence and also at the same time i'm afraid that i would say something wrong . So in the end i'll just keep my mouth shut and stand there just like a stone doing nothing . Seriously,, what kind of person am i ?????????????? Afterall, I feel sorry and also at the same time feel thankful for people(boyf) that stays with me and still dealing with me and my mixed emotional no matter what . 😢
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